The Eternal Gem

The wonderful thing
about Zen practice is
that you get to do it
whether you like it or not.

I was talking to a woman the other day who is preparing to receive the Precepts during Jukai at Throssel in early April. This quote indicates that once you have committed to the practice it does itself. One thing that seems to happen during the lead-up to the commitment made during Jukai is to question ones ‘readiness’. Questions such as Am I able to keep the Precepts? Or, Am I adequately prepared, or would it be best to wait another year?

Like anything else one commits to, one enters with the understanding and depth one has at that time. Invariably that understanding deepens as one goes on in life. In the beginning taking up formal practice seems to be all about discipline. Not a word or concept some of us take so kindly too! The rebellious amongst us know how the internal pressure to ‘sit still’ works with that rebellious nature which…well…is in the habit of rebelling. There is always the need to be reflective around what we choose to do and not do. That is true for everybody.

Even after very many years of committed practice that little duality, Discipline v rebellion, can left foot us. At such times it’s good to take a kind look at oneself. Not sitting may not be a problem with discipline. It might be that something is pushing one to take a deeper look as to why one sits anyway. In the beginning it is a ‘good thing’ and becomes a ‘good’ habit which proves we are not the hopeless kid we sometimes think we are!

We have been told that over and over that ‘pure zazen must be done’, that sitting is a good thing. But what is the good, and what is the thing? The kid in us all, the rebellious one, gets some hard knocks along the way but not everything needs to be laid at her door. As the quote says, we practice whether we like it, or like it not. More importantly whether we know it or not. And along the way we struggle but that’s just a finger pointing back to us to ease up on ourselves. Why not sit still and enjoy and appreciate the gem we carry in our hearts. Sometimes we know it’s twinkle and most often not.

The gem, however, can be lost sight of. But not for long though.

Thanks to Chris Y. for the quote. And I’m sorry not to post more often of recent weeks. Right now my Internet connection has failed so nothing much will appear here for a few days. Sitting in the local gift shop where there is a free Internet connection I realize how I enjoy writing in such conditions. The statutory coffee and cake helps of course!

This post is for those who are stepping, those who have been stepping for years and all of us who have been stepping…eternally. For that’s, in truth, how it is. Practice has no beginning and no end. But receiving the Precepts formally is not nothing.

Reflecting From The Corner Of A Street

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A pause for remembering

Starbucks. Hardly a shop I would frequent normally. However I was given a gift card while in America last year and I’ve been using it when traveling. A cold damp Saturday morning in Manchester provided the perfect opportunity to sit and ponder life with a mug of hot coffee. Coffee itself is a treat, for me.

Past life. Past city life. Flashing past. Coloured thoughts. Theater and meals. Ten speed bike. Hole-in-the-wall cash. Red double deckers. Double yellow lines. Traffic Wardens!

Dreams.
Nothing to regret.

I have been out and about travelling for nearly two weeks. So many people. Your kindness and friendship valued. I’ve been talking and thinking about communication. Hopefully I’ll voice my thoughts.

Breathless Living

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Sunday last. A brief stop for a bowl of soup at The Bowes Museum, Barnard Castle.

Absorbed in the drama and costumes, carried away by the poetry of the fine cascade of notes flying up from violin and oboe, the recitation brings unsought emotion and then…. And then the performance is over and for just a brief moment there is silence. A balloon of silence, a moment between ending and the audience responding. Hopefully with cries of appreciation and wild applause. But what of that pause, that pregnant pause so full of potential. A response is in the air.

Apart from the obvious pauses in ones day, week, year and life time there is a natural pause which gets missed in our breathless way of living. And that is the pause, if you bring your mind to it, between an out breath and an in breath. Just wait, pause, at the end of the out breath and with no effort at all the in-breath comes of itself. Sort of snaps in with ones ribs expanding back, sideways and in-front. Try a pregnant pause. Discover that balloon of silence. What comes out of ones mouth, words, might be changed in the process of pausing. Take care not to hold your breath though!

BAD – Buddhist Action Day

Well I am always glad to get behind collective activity which lends itself to the good and BAD err….sound good! Sorry I couldn’t resist! So if you are part of a Buddhist group or community why not clean out a ditch, mend a footpath or…well there are so many possibilities. Linking up with groups such as The Woodland Trust, National Trust and similar organizations might provide suitable work for willing hands.

Would you or your organisation (in Britain) be willing to run an event during the Diamond Jubilee year in July 2012? Each major faith community has been offered a month in 2012 in which to organise inclusive events based on various themes. The Buddhist community has been offered a month – July – in which to run events that have an environmental theme. We have chosen July 3rd as our official ‘Earthkind – Buddhist Action Day’ but your events may be planned for any time during July.
Earthkind – Buddhist Action Day. The Network of Buddhist Organisations.

Please let me know if you/your Buddhist community are organising something during July. I’d love to join in if I’m nearby(ish), already I’m thinking of heading towards Telford in the Midlands.

And do remember to let the NBO know what you have planned so they can publicise it on their website.